Aamaw was moving to approach Knight Valentine before he could leave the grove, slowly reaching out a hand to clasp his shoulder and give him the opportunity to pull away if he wished, projecting quiet understanding and acceptance in the Force. Squeezing reassuringly, the Ithorian's chest rumbled as he hummed in thought before speaking, his words meant for Ash but loud enough for others to hear.
"I do not have your experience in combat, my friend, for all that I have faced it in my time as a Knight. I am first and foremost a healer, my battleground begins where the battle ends. You say that you find harmony on the battlefield, but the pain in your voice and the agony I can feel coming from you in waves shows that that is not so. What you find amongst the dead and dying is purpose, and I understand that all too well."
Aamaw carefully drew Ash closer against his side, still gripping his shoulder reassuringly even as he herded him to a fallen log that could serve as a bench and gently nudged him to sit beside him.
"In the three decades I have been a Jedi I have seen more of the cruelty and darkness and senseless loss of the Galaxy than I thought possible. Children dying in my arms from disease or wounds, families broken by the chaos and violence that haunts parts of the galaxy no matter what actions we take to address them; every time I close my eyes I see the faces of those I failed to save. Its enough to drive anyone mad, even a Jedi."
The Ithorian Knight paused for a moment, head bowed and eyes closed against an onslaught of memories. Shaking himself, Aamaw embraced the pain and sadness and regret - allowed it to curl around him like thorny vines and prick against his heart - and then released those feelings into the Force to be washed away by the current.
"But amid that pain and chaos I've found my purpose; for every child I've held and lost, two more have walked away from my clinic healthy and whole. Every sick and injured patient I comfort and return to their loved ones is a victory, and I relish in it. You are meant to be a Guardian, a protector of the innocent. Use moving meditations as my Master did to reach out to the Force while practicing your form. Find a path through the chaos of this galaxy by staying true to your purpose. And learn to forgive yourself for those you couldnt save. That is your path to Harmony."
"I do not have your experience in combat, my friend, for all that I have faced it in my time as a Knight. I am first and foremost a healer, my battleground begins where the battle ends. You say that you find harmony on the battlefield, but the pain in your voice and the agony I can feel coming from you in waves shows that that is not so. What you find amongst the dead and dying is purpose, and I understand that all too well."
Aamaw carefully drew Ash closer against his side, still gripping his shoulder reassuringly even as he herded him to a fallen log that could serve as a bench and gently nudged him to sit beside him.
"In the three decades I have been a Jedi I have seen more of the cruelty and darkness and senseless loss of the Galaxy than I thought possible. Children dying in my arms from disease or wounds, families broken by the chaos and violence that haunts parts of the galaxy no matter what actions we take to address them; every time I close my eyes I see the faces of those I failed to save. Its enough to drive anyone mad, even a Jedi."
The Ithorian Knight paused for a moment, head bowed and eyes closed against an onslaught of memories. Shaking himself, Aamaw embraced the pain and sadness and regret - allowed it to curl around him like thorny vines and prick against his heart - and then released those feelings into the Force to be washed away by the current.
"But amid that pain and chaos I've found my purpose; for every child I've held and lost, two more have walked away from my clinic healthy and whole. Every sick and injured patient I comfort and return to their loved ones is a victory, and I relish in it. You are meant to be a Guardian, a protector of the innocent. Use moving meditations as my Master did to reach out to the Force while practicing your form. Find a path through the chaos of this galaxy by staying true to your purpose. And learn to forgive yourself for those you couldnt save. That is your path to Harmony."