Tiamat didn't move when Jaikus finally spoke, his tone more stern than she had ever remembering it to have been. She waited for his rebuttal, to toss aside her pain as petty pillow talk, but he did not. The storm the rolled and carried on inside her calmed just briefly as she met his eyes, listening to his question, to know what Raze had allowed her to see in those brief moments. However, she knew what she felt all those years ago, and as Jaikus continued she wished he could know also, it was genuine, it was real, and the suffering she had been silently battling for decades had worn her to the core.
Jaikus was right, in at least the Raze that now existed, he was not capable of those same feelings. She knew he would kill her in an instant, she knew he wanted obedience, however, it was hard not to ponder the what ifs, to know the whole truth of what happened to keep Raze and herself separated. However, the painful reality would remain, it was gone, discarded and destroyed, and only her love still remained, unfulfilled. The wound so deep, Raze would have known, Emryc would have known, and now Jaikus, who saw how much of a heart she carried to reassure she was not a monster like the rest of the ones she had met.
He approached her, but Tiamat didn't move, she didn't realize she had stopped pacing. She felt sick, exhausted, the foundations of her self shattered as the storm inside blew through everything she had known, felt and experienced.
"For just today, Jai, I don't want to care about anything." she whispered, feeling herself sink back into her mind, looking for any respite from the chaos, "I just want to go home." she said and turned on her heel to return to the hanger and her ship.
@Altaris @Phoenix @Sreeya