Home Sweet Home

[Reuben Azari]

It would never be the same as Corellia but what choice was there? Now under Mandalorian rule, returning to his home planet wasn't an option and so any hope of seeing his family again was gone and had been gone for many years. They would never know what happened to their son or nephew and could only assume they had been killed in the purge two decades prior but it was a small mercy as they would never know what their son had become or who had pushed him over the edge to become what he did. Although remnants of the Jedi remained, that was a lifetime ago, a time he no longer wished to connect with. Content with living the mundane life that was his path from birth, he had renounced everything that he once was and no longer considered himself a Jedi. He would rarely talk about his past, even to Ash, and purposely tried to avoid the topic at any given chance though he openly disapproved of Ash teaching the ways of the force to her children because he believed she was just setting them up to be targets of the perpetual purge.

In the years following the purge, he was full of hope and reverence of the Jedi but with time and distance he began to see through the cracks he had been too ignorant to see and before long he became bitter towards the Jedi and what they had caused, not only for him personally but for the galaxy as a whole. Though their cause may be noble, it was implausible and futile and only caused more problems in the end than it solved, they spent most of their resources on attempting to end a problem they created in the first place, such as the Sith. After the evacuation on Jedha, he stuck with Ash because he had nowhere else to go and she was the closest thing to family he had since she had been his master when he was a padawan. He had felt so lost since then, all the purpose he once had with the Jedi was gone and even though Ash had retained her identity as a Jedi, it would never be a part of Reuben's life again.


@Algarus

 

[Ashlyna Talmount]

She loved alot of things in this life, and there were alot of things she hated as well. Ash had done the best she could for her new family, despite the struggles of the last twenty years, she had managed to carve out a life for them, her children deserved that much,. What really hurt her, was knowing that they would never know the life that a normal child would have. They were the children of a jedi and a criminal, and their father was a leader of a resistance movement. It wasn't exactly a safe environment for them, but there was nothing she could do. She could sense how dissatisfied Reuben was with things, the bitterness was strong within him. The children had sensed it as well, even Natan knew something was bothering his uncle, but Ash had struggled with how to confront her former padawan on it. She wasn't the shining beacon of the order, in fact if you asked her she would tell you point blank she was a failure.

They had all lost much in the conflict, Arda was dead and speaking frankly, no one seemed to have any real direction. 'Hey, lets go attack these slavers' or 'Hey lets go attack these Sith', that seemed to be the only course of action anyone could agree upon now a days. The galaxy had gone mad, the Mandalorians swung a noose around the Republic, and the fledgling government seemed to just be narrowly avoiding conflict time and time again. It was uneasy peace to say the least. Her children gave her hope though, that just maybe the future wouldn't be so grim. It had certainly been a dark time when she was their age, but just maybe there was a light at the end of the tunnel. If only Reuben could see that. Ash was a jedi, she would never renounce that. She was a mother, a wife, and a rebel as well, but a jedi was the life she had chosen. She would give all that up if the call came, but due to luck or perhaps fate, it had not. On one particular night, Ash decided it was time, as she would confront Reuben in his room, putting on her biggest smile and folding her hands behind her back. "How's my Reuby doing tonight?" She asked, still keeping that motherly tone despite all that she had been through. She had long since hung up the jedi robes, favoring her flight jacket and similar attire now a days. Her lightsaber still swung at her hip, the old hydraspanner still kept her company in times like this.

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[Reuben Azari]

At the sound of Ash's voice, Reuben looked up from his book at Ash but didn't return the smile, he was irritated, not with Ash specifically but with everything. He closed the book and set it down on the bed but didn't move to give her room to sit on the bed if she wished to, he didn't want to give her the impression that he was inviting her in, much less did he want a conversation right now, especially as he could only guess what the content of the conversation would be. "I'm fine." He replied blandly with a shrug. "How are you?" He returned the question, despite the distance he had purposely begun to place between them he still cared about her.

It was evident why Ash was here, even if he couldn't sense it, it had been a long time coming and he supposed it was time to relent and talk to his former master about his true feelings, it wasn't like he could hide his emotions from her anyway but he doubted she would accept his views and would do all she could to change his mind but she'd soon learn that he was a lost cause, the damage had been done and he would never come to accept his former way of life again, nor be supportive of those who chose to follow such a lifestyle.

The years past were wasted, he had given all and been left with nothing, the Order could not sustain itself and it took down all those who had tried to help it down with them, it would never keep the peace as it claimed to, only perpetuate violence in the name of peace. These were difficult truths he had come to terms with, the truths he had been ignorant to for so long, acting as a pawn under those more powerful for the sake of good. But what was good? No one seemed to know, the goal posts were always changing and the realisation that the Jedi were not all as noble as they portrayed themselves to be was a painful one.


@Algarus