Ask Yavin IV Healing Words

[Felix]

Felix layed in the infirmary cot, his forearm covered in a brace while slung around his shoulder, closure strips covered cover small cuts across his face.

His eyes were closed, asleep. It was currently the only method of escape for him from the pain and the never-ending ringing in his ear in which the general quiet of infirmary didn’t help.

But unconsciousness was also an escape from how he was feeling, he was worried about drastus but anger was his forefront emotion right now, but it wasn’t at the sith, it was at himself.

Once again he was useless and a burden for others to carry, dead weight, just like on Dathomir. Whenever he has the chance to step up, to show what he can do, it fails, it explodes in his face and this time it was literal.

@Killa Ree

 

[Indy Sati]

When she heard of Drastus and Felix, and their presence on Denon, she felt nothing. Numb, dulled acceptance at first was her only solace. On top of everything else, it seemed fitting. But she dwelled now on the heavy decision that would have to be made; her padawans had broken the rules. And worse, cost someone their life. Even more so, however, was that this wasn't the first time both of them had snuck out behind her back, only to hear of their exploits later.

It was more than anger. In fact, she was cold, no fury or anything of that nature. Rather... she was hurt.

She was hurt they snuck out. Hurt they had practically lied, and that though she vowed to be worthy of their trust, she wasn't worthy of theirs. She would heal Felix to the best of her ability while he rested... and when he woke, they would talk.

She extended her hand over the young man's chest, and began to focus.

@christhebetrayer

 

[Felix]

As she layed her hand on Felix's chest and focused, the cuts across his face began to slow close and heal, his other injuries weren't so obvious in how much they had healed, so she wouldn't know until the boy woke.

It had been about an hour before Felix began to stir from his slumber, his eyes slow cracking open as he gathered his sense, he noticed immediately the ring in his ears had dulled, it was still very much audile for him but it wasn't as drowning as before.

his eyes scanned the room until they met indy, where they stopped and blinked twice to make sure he was seeing things right before they darted away and closed, hoping she didn't notice that he was now awake.

@Killa Ree

 

[Indy Sati]

"Felix."

The moment his eyes opened, she was there. When he closed them and blinked, she felt her lips thin. "Don't pretend around me. Open your eyes."

When he would, she was sitting on the chair next to him. Her hands were settled in her lap, yellow eyes watching with intensity. "We've known each other far too long for you to pretend with me." With a flick of her hand, a water jug and glass floated over and the glass began to fill, then hover near his bedside.

"I'm sure you must be thirsty, possibly even hungry."

@christhebetrayer

 

[Felix]

There was silence for a second before he let a sigh of defeat and sat up in his cot, eyes open though he couldn't bring them to look at her.

He didn't like how calm and nice she was being, he wanted her to be mad or angery or just something to let him how she was feeling and what he could expect from her rather then this... awkardiness.

“yes... I could eat” his voice was quiet, not whispering but he certainly didn't have the confidence to speak at full volume. he picked up the glass of water float and began to drink it. he didn't know what to do, he knew needed to apologise but he didn't know how or when.

@Killa Ree

 

[Indy Sati]

She nodded once, letting the pitcher drift back to the end table. "Good. Then at least your appetite is healthy," she assented once, hands in her lap.

She stared away from him, at the wall. A small window cut into it showed a view of the expanse of Yavin, the trees and clear skies, and she sat in silence. When she finally spoke again, her voice was low, quiet.

"Why don't you trust me?"

@christhebetrayer

 

[Felix]

placing the glass on the table at side, his eyes glaned back to indy, seeing her staring off he followed her eye site to the small window that looked out over yavin, he stared with her, not knowing how long they were staring before she spoke up again to break the sileance.

His eyes move down to look at his feet at the end of his cot as she spoke, the void of shame had been growing in his stomach felt like it could consume him and right now he just wanted to disappear more than anything but he couldn't he knew he had to come clean.

His throat was tight, it felt he was fighting his body own to speak. “I... I'm so, so sorry, master.” his was voice tense, high pitch and nasally, he closed his eyes as they started to water, producing tears that began to fall down his face “I know you must have mixed feelings about seeing me, but I want you to know I'm so sorry and ashamed of what I did. I just wanted to help”

@Killa Ree

 

[Indy Sati]

She waited, silently, while his voice broke, and the words spilled over themselves. She let him speak, allowed him to say his piece. She knew he was ashamed, that he was trying to help.

It still didn't change things.

"You could have helped by contacting me," she answered calmly. However, there was no anger in her voice. "I'm giving you one last chance, Felix. But when you and I train, I will push your limits. You will work hard, harder than you've ever had to work before. Do you understand?"

@christhebetrayer

 

[Felix]

He rubbed the tears from his eyes, his nose beginning to sniffle from his crying, his eyes still fixed on the end of his cot.

He listened to her words, this was his last chance, one more kark up and he was gone and he didn't want that, she was a good master, probably better than he deserved.

he nodded “I... I understand”

@Killa Ree

 

[Indy Sati]

"Good."

She stood, then gave the Padawan a long look. Taking in the miserable state of him, how he must have been terrified.

She suddenly leaned forward, wrapping her arms around him in a tight hug. Tears pricked at her own throat, too, but she controlled them, kept herself in check. "Come to me when you are fully recovered. Then, we will begin." Releasing him, she suddenly turned on her heel and strode out, not looking back.

But tears still smarted as she left the room once more. She would wait.

//End Thread