Raz Solus
SWRP Writer
- Joined
- Dec 15, 2018
- Messages
- 448
- Reaction score
- 190
She wasn’t very good at this. And she felt like a lesser version of herself. She had tried to lift up a cup of water, and it promptly shattered in her hand. Raz threw the shards across the room in anger, her chest rapidly rising and falling as she felt her rage beginning to take over. She was weak. She was broken. She was damaged goods. How could she ever maintain her duties like this?
She was still in a hospital bed, finally having been taken to a medical bay after Corellia. As she had predicted, they weren’t able to save her arm. She was left with a prosthetic, all of her beautiful tattoos gone with the limb. Raz had tried to leave the medical bay at once, and she had been ordered back to bed several times. Today was the first day she was allowed to climb out and walk, and it was the first time she could attempt to use the prosthetic. She felt like a strange cyborg with the robotic arm, and it took her a while to even flex her fingers. Raz ignored the lectures about how she would need rehabilitation, her heart broken over the loss.
More than the pain, she could only focus on the feeling of losing a part of her. Could she hold a gun the same? Could she fight the same? Raz looked at herself in a mirror, and she hated what she saw. She wasn’t in armor, and she looked small and frail. Her body was covered in various bandages still and her arm hurt from where it had been removed. She knew she would have to live with this for the rest of her life, and she would have to accept never touching things the same again.
Raz sighed and buried her face in her hands, feeling the cold metal of her new prosthetic against her skin. Had it all been worth it?