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The low hum of the engines somehow soothed Alora's troubled mind. For years she was a wild beast, crawling the dumps of Nar Shaddaa. Then Ral and Carii happened on her path and pulled her out of that trash-pit. She wasn't ungrateful, far from it. But she had trouble expressing her gratitude. They took her in, Carii definitely tried to care for her, but Alora pushed away. She wasn't accustomed to being cared for, it felt alien to her. They took her with them on their journey, even a job to Nal Hutta. Details don't matter to her now, they tried to bring her back into society. Her society, the mando'ade. It felt like they were trying to tame her, but she gritted her teeth and kept silent as best as she could. And then she blew it, all at once in an instant.
The Alii'aliit, the meeting of the clans. Men spoke, particularly one. Sisk Renelo, a clan chief who proclaimed himself Mand'alor. The memory still brought vile to her mouth. He called to arms, to lead a war against the Imperium. A suicide war, suicide for the whole mando nation. And many agreed with him. But Alora wouldn't. She couldn't. So she spoke up. She didn't lie, she didn't try to manipulate, she didn't try to anger or insult anyone. She just spoke what she thought, what she felt deep inside her heart.
But people around her were not used to being told about their failures right into their faces. Especially this new "Mand'alor". It was the difference between being an animal and being one of the "civilized" people. So they alienated her, banishing her from the mando society.
"No matter," Alora thought angrily. "I can wait."
And now, weeks later, she was here, sitting on the bunk in the spaceship flying Force knows where. One favor Carii did her. She was definitely angry with Alora, but this request she didn't turn down.
Now Alora was sitting on the bunk and stared into the dull and dusty visor of a worn and mandalorian helmet. One painted in red and orange once, now almost totally grey, the paint worn off. Her mother's helmet.
Carii brought Alora back to Nar Shaddaa and they found the crash-site, where Alora's ship crashed all those years ago. Alora didn't want to leave her buir on the ugly rock she came to hate. It wasn't the mando way, to care so much about bodies. They weren't relevant, only the soul mattered and the soul lived on as long as the person was remembered. That made Mandalors of old almost immortal. But Alora didn't care.
They buried her mother in the soil of Concord Dawn. Alora wanted to do it on Manda'yaim, but Carii just showed her a hologram of what Mandalor's surface looked like today. Alora agreed that it wasn't a good idea.
Now that low metal locker held her mother's beskar'gam. All of it. Not just a plate or gauntlet. All of it.
- We'll need to replace most of it, - Carii told her then. - It was mostly durasteel and it all twisted and damaged. Most of the circuits are fried and the chipsets rusted away. But the helmet looks to be made from beskar. Will need just new paint work and some repairs on the systems and insides. The visor too.
Alora just nodded to her then. It didn't matter. It was hers now.
Zeera lifted her head from her paws and looked at the hatch leading to the cockpit. Then she looked at Alora and tilted her head questioningly. Alora sighed. Carii was very on edge lately. She parted with her husband, one she surely loved and cared for. And it was Alora's fault, no doubt about that. If Alora could help her, fix her mistakes somehow, she would do it instantly. But she couldn't change the past. And she couldn't change the way she thought and felt. But she will bear the guilt from this moment on. And she hoped she will someday get the chance to repay Carii for her care and patience.
- We are just butterflies, living a single day in the light of the Universe. And then we face the coming of night and die.
It wasn't her own wisdom of course, it was a saying she heard more then once from one of the preachers, who tried encouraging the inhabitants of Lower City of Nar Shaddaa. She didn't believe a word of it then. But now she was starting to believe it.
- But we'll let the Galaxy burn before we die, won't we, Zeera?
Zeera growled something unintelligible, laying her head back down on her paws and closing her eyes. Alora sighed and climbed up the ladder into the cockpit. Carii was sitting in the pilot's chair, inputting some navigational data into the terminal. Her helmet rested on the copilot's seat. Alora didn't dare to touch it before, so it was a sign that Carii didn't want company at the moment. Alora silently turned around and crouched to the hatch, intending to leave Carii to herself.
- It doesn't help if you keep hiding from me, acting like you're a ghost.
Alora bit her lip.
- I know I caused you trouble.
- Trouble? - Carii smirked. - Girl, you almost got yourself killed, drove Arya into combat against Sisk and ruined my marriage. No girl, you didn't cause me trouble. You caused one hell of a havoc.
Alora pursed her lips and didn't reply.
Carii wanted to say something else, but then suddenly the comm terminal beeped loudly. Both Carii and Alora stared at it for a few moment. A bright red light was flashing above the console. Emergency transmission, Code Red.
The Alii'aliit, the meeting of the clans. Men spoke, particularly one. Sisk Renelo, a clan chief who proclaimed himself Mand'alor. The memory still brought vile to her mouth. He called to arms, to lead a war against the Imperium. A suicide war, suicide for the whole mando nation. And many agreed with him. But Alora wouldn't. She couldn't. So she spoke up. She didn't lie, she didn't try to manipulate, she didn't try to anger or insult anyone. She just spoke what she thought, what she felt deep inside her heart.
But people around her were not used to being told about their failures right into their faces. Especially this new "Mand'alor". It was the difference between being an animal and being one of the "civilized" people. So they alienated her, banishing her from the mando society.
"No matter," Alora thought angrily. "I can wait."
And now, weeks later, she was here, sitting on the bunk in the spaceship flying Force knows where. One favor Carii did her. She was definitely angry with Alora, but this request she didn't turn down.
Now Alora was sitting on the bunk and stared into the dull and dusty visor of a worn and mandalorian helmet. One painted in red and orange once, now almost totally grey, the paint worn off. Her mother's helmet.
Carii brought Alora back to Nar Shaddaa and they found the crash-site, where Alora's ship crashed all those years ago. Alora didn't want to leave her buir on the ugly rock she came to hate. It wasn't the mando way, to care so much about bodies. They weren't relevant, only the soul mattered and the soul lived on as long as the person was remembered. That made Mandalors of old almost immortal. But Alora didn't care.
They buried her mother in the soil of Concord Dawn. Alora wanted to do it on Manda'yaim, but Carii just showed her a hologram of what Mandalor's surface looked like today. Alora agreed that it wasn't a good idea.
Now that low metal locker held her mother's beskar'gam. All of it. Not just a plate or gauntlet. All of it.
- We'll need to replace most of it, - Carii told her then. - It was mostly durasteel and it all twisted and damaged. Most of the circuits are fried and the chipsets rusted away. But the helmet looks to be made from beskar. Will need just new paint work and some repairs on the systems and insides. The visor too.
Alora just nodded to her then. It didn't matter. It was hers now.
Zeera lifted her head from her paws and looked at the hatch leading to the cockpit. Then she looked at Alora and tilted her head questioningly. Alora sighed. Carii was very on edge lately. She parted with her husband, one she surely loved and cared for. And it was Alora's fault, no doubt about that. If Alora could help her, fix her mistakes somehow, she would do it instantly. But she couldn't change the past. And she couldn't change the way she thought and felt. But she will bear the guilt from this moment on. And she hoped she will someday get the chance to repay Carii for her care and patience.
- We are just butterflies, living a single day in the light of the Universe. And then we face the coming of night and die.
It wasn't her own wisdom of course, it was a saying she heard more then once from one of the preachers, who tried encouraging the inhabitants of Lower City of Nar Shaddaa. She didn't believe a word of it then. But now she was starting to believe it.
- But we'll let the Galaxy burn before we die, won't we, Zeera?
Zeera growled something unintelligible, laying her head back down on her paws and closing her eyes. Alora sighed and climbed up the ladder into the cockpit. Carii was sitting in the pilot's chair, inputting some navigational data into the terminal. Her helmet rested on the copilot's seat. Alora didn't dare to touch it before, so it was a sign that Carii didn't want company at the moment. Alora silently turned around and crouched to the hatch, intending to leave Carii to herself.
- It doesn't help if you keep hiding from me, acting like you're a ghost.
Alora bit her lip.
- I know I caused you trouble.
- Trouble? - Carii smirked. - Girl, you almost got yourself killed, drove Arya into combat against Sisk and ruined my marriage. No girl, you didn't cause me trouble. You caused one hell of a havoc.
Alora pursed her lips and didn't reply.
Carii wanted to say something else, but then suddenly the comm terminal beeped loudly. Both Carii and Alora stared at it for a few moment. A bright red light was flashing above the console. Emergency transmission, Code Red.