At first Alais, or "Lilith" while being in the presence of anyone in this group, remained on her knee to listen because she was focused entirely on his words. She echoed him once, "The Force..." but remained mostly quiet at first despite having even more questions now.
When he told her to close her eyes she finally stood up, taking a step back at the same time to put a small amount of distance between them again. There was still very little trust there —but more than she had in a long time. Her eyes closed and she... could feel it. Even though she knew it was always there, now she at least had a bare minimum understanding of it.
Because she felt so calm in the moment, her mind went back to a calmer moment in her life. One of the only moments she wasn't in pain. Before the man she trusted betrayed her. Something unexpected happened... she felt as if something wanted her to stay in that moment of peace. But as quickly as that feeling of light filled her it was extinguished by seething anger. Anger from the memory of his betrayal. Something else whispered in her head, drawing out the desire of revenge. Her fists clenched and Force stirred around her, pushing the nearby box back.
But she stopped herself there, taking a deep breath as her eyes snapped opened. She didn't want to think of the betrayal so she quickly asked one of the questions she had, "Why?" she said through clenched teeth, still struggling from the feeling she felt. "Why were we manifested? Is there any point?" Or, in other words, why did she have to suffer this existence on Nar Shaddaa.
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When he told her to close her eyes she finally stood up, taking a step back at the same time to put a small amount of distance between them again. There was still very little trust there —but more than she had in a long time. Her eyes closed and she... could feel it. Even though she knew it was always there, now she at least had a bare minimum understanding of it.
Because she felt so calm in the moment, her mind went back to a calmer moment in her life. One of the only moments she wasn't in pain. Before the man she trusted betrayed her. Something unexpected happened... she felt as if something wanted her to stay in that moment of peace. But as quickly as that feeling of light filled her it was extinguished by seething anger. Anger from the memory of his betrayal. Something else whispered in her head, drawing out the desire of revenge. Her fists clenched and Force stirred around her, pushing the nearby box back.
But she stopped herself there, taking a deep breath as her eyes snapped opened. She didn't want to think of the betrayal so she quickly asked one of the questions she had, "Why?" she said through clenched teeth, still struggling from the feeling she felt. "Why were we manifested? Is there any point?" Or, in other words, why did she have to suffer this existence on Nar Shaddaa.
@Phoenix