Darth Kravos
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Kal relaxed a bit when he heard her respond, glad to know that they were still relatively safe. He pushed himself up to sit just as a sandwich came flying to hit him in the face and fall into his lap. Despite the pain he was still in, he was actually in a remarkably better mood now that he wasn't worried about dying. He let out a sigh and thanked her for the sandwich and grabbed the bottle of water, guzzling it greedily.
He finally paused and unwrapped the sandwich as she told about her experience out there, face twisting into an almost pained and embarrassed expression as he realized how new of a world this was to her. They're pigs. Most of the people in these underlevels are, he said, not offering an explanation for how he knew so much about this place. He did manage a grin as she mentioned nearly hitting him. He would have deserved it for sure.
He waved off her apology moments later. It's fine. Battles are... stressful. They certainly don't bring out the patient side of me, either. Was that your first real fight? he asked, already fairly sure he knew the answer. Give her a few more and she may not have quite the aversion to killing. He wasn't sure if he should try to break her of that idealistic worldview now or preserve that innocence as long as he could.
After another long pause he sighed and added, You'll... get used to it.... kinda. Not that it was ever fully adjusted to, but the coping mechanisms would kick in eventually and the potential bad habits that Jedi really shouldn't have. But once you're in a real battle - if there are even enough of us left for one anymore - you just... can't let it all get to you. There's the fiery rage of Exiles, and you just have to be... passive. Even when you kill it's not... personal, he said.
Even as he said it, realized this may have been opening himself up to another lecture. But maybe if you can get through this war without killing then you're already a better Jedi than me, he quickly added, an element of truth slipping through. He didn't believe that everyone was going to get through this war with clean hands. Thank you for patching me up, he said with a smile, trying to show that he didn't bear her any animosity for her opinions.
He finally paused and unwrapped the sandwich as she told about her experience out there, face twisting into an almost pained and embarrassed expression as he realized how new of a world this was to her. They're pigs. Most of the people in these underlevels are, he said, not offering an explanation for how he knew so much about this place. He did manage a grin as she mentioned nearly hitting him. He would have deserved it for sure.
He waved off her apology moments later. It's fine. Battles are... stressful. They certainly don't bring out the patient side of me, either. Was that your first real fight? he asked, already fairly sure he knew the answer. Give her a few more and she may not have quite the aversion to killing. He wasn't sure if he should try to break her of that idealistic worldview now or preserve that innocence as long as he could.
After another long pause he sighed and added, You'll... get used to it.... kinda. Not that it was ever fully adjusted to, but the coping mechanisms would kick in eventually and the potential bad habits that Jedi really shouldn't have. But once you're in a real battle - if there are even enough of us left for one anymore - you just... can't let it all get to you. There's the fiery rage of Exiles, and you just have to be... passive. Even when you kill it's not... personal, he said.
Even as he said it, realized this may have been opening himself up to another lecture. But maybe if you can get through this war without killing then you're already a better Jedi than me, he quickly added, an element of truth slipping through. He didn't believe that everyone was going to get through this war with clean hands. Thank you for patching me up, he said with a smile, trying to show that he didn't bear her any animosity for her opinions.