Raz Solus
SWRP Writer
- Joined
- Dec 15, 2018
- Messages
- 448
- Reaction score
- 190
She had murdered that village. She had nailed a dying old man to a pole in between his two sons that were also nailed to poles. It was a gruesome, sick display, and she only saw red as she did it. Raz only realized what she had done after the fact, and the level to which she lost control would haunt her for years. She would carry the burden, and she would know she was a monster herself.
The mantle of Mand’alor was getting to her. It was causing fractures and cracks in her. Everyone had expectations of her, an entire people looked to her to lead them, and she wanted nothing more than to hide away from it and just rest. She wanted to sleep for days and weeks and just forget the galaxy. She often found that escape with Leandros, but she saw the horror on his face once he saw what she had done to the village.
He had forgiven her. Of course he would. But she couldn’t forgive herself. She took time away and arrived on Concord Dawn’s moon, the place she often visited as the site of her old village that had been burned. The Sith had done to her people exactly what she had done to those villagers. Was she any better than them? The thought made her sick to her stomach.
Raz was back in the same place, next to the same graves. As usual, she was crouched down next to the one of her mother. She was in her armor fully, not bothering to take her helmet of this time. She ran a gloved hand through the sand, watching it flow like water between her fingers. The wind carried the grains of sand to the side before they dispersed entirely. She could hold onto those she cared about as easily as she could hold the sand. The bitter thought stayed with her, the weight of her actions pressing down heavily on her shoulders.