Why...how could this get even worse? Those feels literally started to eat her alive and his gaze pained her so hard. She didn't even want to express why he should better run, but she could not bear looking at him any longer. She clenched her hands into fists while the first tears began to swell in her eyes. The rage grew and it was not just directed against him, but mainly against herself, all the things she regretted and this whole, fucked up situation. Running together?! He couldn't have been serious...and yet his words were honest. The tranquility of that place was eery and so was this bizarre scene, and yet she could see and hear that he was completely honest. She started panting while it seemed like those mixed emotions were about to erupt.
This was nothing but a screwed, fucked up test, wasn't it? He wanted to test her loyalty, he wanted her to be confronted with all those feelings. But why? Because he needed to erase that part of her, didn't he? She was so unbelievably frustrated, especially because Lukas didn't stop talking and worst of all, he was not running. Instead, he even urged her to run with him or to even come inside first and she just couldn't take it. Again, she turned around, instantly pulling out of his grasp while she took a few steps back towards the path. "WHERE ARE YOU?!" she yelled like a maniac, however knowing damn well that he wouldn't show himself and Lukas wouldn't understand.
But what the hell did he want her to do?! Heavily breathing, she frantically looked around, before she spunnd faced Lukas, her eyes shifting into showing the slightest hint of the inner corruption again. Flecks of gold mingled with the light blue and as she faced him now, he wouldn't recognize that gaze. "Run", she now hissed feistily, but she already knew he wouldn't listen. Somehow, he was obsessed with her still. He wanted to harm her even further. He wanted to stop her, to keep holding her back, to continue taking that power from her.
Now, the tears started running as she reached out, invisible tendrils wrapping on Lukas neck where her lips hadn't been not long ago...but this was over now. "Is that what you fucking want me to do?!" she shouted, wildly looking around, trying to spot Raze in the forest. She was shaking, but it was no that rage that consumed her while Raze's words echoed through her head. The heavy breathing intensified and so did that inner tensions while she now stared at Lukas again. Her former lover. Now it was not her consciousness that lay bare, but her heart. Her shattered, conflicted heart. Drawing strength from all that agony would have been helping, but she could neither concentrate on her inner pain, nor on the stinging marks on her back while she was slowly obstructing the airflow of the man she had loved before. She repeatedly told her this was a test and she needed to do that, but this was worse than torture and every pain Raze could inflict on her.
@Sreeya